December 20, 2007
Merry Christmas 2007!
December 14, 2007
We are very Blessed...
The lady inside graciously allowed us to sit in on their couch while I waited for James to arrive. As I sat there, I was saddened by the thought of people dealing with death at this festive time of year. Of course death is always, always sad - but at Christmas time? I think that's especially sad. A few different people were walking about....what were their stories? Which loved one from their family had died? What is their Christmas day going to feel like without their Father, Mother, Grandparent, Sibling, Relative, Friend or Child? How awful death is - yet, really, if we know Jesus, it doesn't have to be all sad. That can be a comfort. It can be a reason to keep on living - to look forward to Heaven more - but even in those comforts, their are empty spots in our daily lives, that those special people used to fill.
Perhaps too, Christmas and death have always been intertwined in a way - Christmas is a celebration of many things - one of which is the birth and coming to earth of a tiny little baby - our Savior. His purpose for coming to earth was to DIE. When our children are born, we know that they will someday die - but I don't think we expect them to die until they have lived a full life - and we don't view their reason of birth as being death. But that was why Jesus was born. He came to take away the sin of the world - and the only way to do that, was by dying-dying in my place.
Thank you dear God - Thank You for sending Jesus, and for taking away my sin. What a great sacrifice. Thank you also for blessing me with my family - and giving us life.
I'm so grateful to have all my family around me, especially during this Christmas season. Sometimes it can be so easy to take someone in our family for granted....or to be easily "bugged" by them. But we are not guaranteed the next moment. Our lives are not in our hands - they are in His. Only God knows when we will breathe our last breath. Oh that we never, never wasted any of these precious moments with each other.
Lord, please help all those who have lost someone dear to their heart. Hold them in Your arms - comfort them, and lead them to You if they do not know you already.
December 07, 2007
Patrick Is Two (well, almost anyways :) )

Our little Paddy! Even at just a few days old, we could tell that he was a strong little guy, and was determined to tackle whatever was thrown his way - which he did right from the beginning! We called him a little pig, too - he had and continues to have a big appetite! Our little long one! He was a serious thoughtful guy - even the midwife who delivered him said he reminded her of an "old soul"

Our little social butterfly! He likes to be in on the action - but it wore him out easily and quickly!
How we loved this little baby boy!! He changed our lives, and added so much to it!
The months of his first year were flying by! Smiles, Jabbering, Crawling, Pulling up.....Each new step brought us immense joy!
Patrick was our dream come true! Both of us had wanted a baby for years!
I loved to dress him up and take him out - he was my little dolly!
From the beginning James and Patrick have had a special relationship. James is so good with babies...and he can nearly ALWAYS get a smile or a laugh out of Patrick - they love to be silly together! 
Patrick was our little buddy. Always there with us. His adorable little smile and big blue eyes could brighten most any load!
We were so excited when he got a high chair! I remember sitting him in it for the first time, and his little legs poking straight out - too short to hang over the sides!
...and he has a great smile :) but I already said that :)
As he grew, so did the messes! :) but that's ok! Someday my house will be perfect, but I will miss the messes then....or, I will miss the little people who used to make them.
And as he grew, so did his hair - and surprised us by having some curl! What a delight!!....he is such a little boy.
And so it should be - because tomorrow my baby will turn two.
When I look at him now, I see very little, if any, "baby" left in his appearance. The baby fat is gone from his legs, and some from his face, too. He is taking on a more grown up look.
November 27, 2007
15 years

And this past July we celebrated 3 years of marriage!!!
In all that time, we've been through a lot together. It's amazing how much! It's almost like we've lived two or three different lives together already!
The early years - back at Garland Bible Church (the place where we met) 
Me liking James -
My mom's hospital experience
The very young and in love days...
The Dell Drive days - courting going on forever - it seemed like the day for marriage would never arrive! Yet it has - over three years ago!

Then there was our first year of marriage - just the two of us (and little Patrick on the way part of that year!) My life began a whole new transformation and adjustment. It was if I was an adult for one of the first times in my life!
Together we experienced the birth of our son. Oh so wonderful, but so difficult, too. Our plans changed, then were changed again when we found out Patrick would have to stay in the hospital for 2 weeks.
James was right there beside me when Patrick entered this world. He was the one who announced whether we had a girl or boy. He was there with me when the Doctors told us about Patrick's strep. He was right there with me during those nearly 2 weeks.
He and I watched our baby grow up together. Together we experienced all the joys of our son's first year. Together we watched him take his first steps.
James and I sat together in the hospital as our precious son threw up, cried and continued to turn more and more red....
He was the one who took time away from work and went with me to the allergy doctors. He has always been there for me as I try new foods on Patrick - always ready to listen with sympathy and care as I rant about how frustrating it all is.
We faced a whole new life together last year.
A Job Change. A Move. A New Church. 
Today is the 1 year anniversary of losing our precious baby. For one whole year he has been gone from our lives.
At breakfast this morning I read Psalm 27. I was thinking some about today's anniversary, and the psalm seemed to fit our life this past year, and the new one coming up in about a month.
The Lord has truly been our light and our salvation throughout all these times. From the day we met, and all that has gone on since then until now.
I am not faithful. There are times when I do not seek a relationship with Him. But even then, He is there for me. Though I may move from Him, He never moves from me. His love is everlasting, enduring forever. Great is His faithfulness.
God has seen us through this difficult year. He has seen us through all the difficult times in these last 15 years.
God has had mercy on us this year, and these last 15 years.
We have sinned and done wrong, but He is always waiting with open arms to forgive us and cleanse us.
Maybe this year will be different. Maybe I can really "let all this stuff go" :) and get serious about my relationship with God. I must believe and seek after Him. And as Psalm 27 says, I must wait. "Wait on the Lord and be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart. Wait I say on the Lord"
We've come a long way, haven't we James? God has truly been good to us. Do you remember all the happy, silly, wonderful times we have had?! I remember so much....car rides, wonderful wednesdays, you singing or dancing or whatever it was you did with the broom to "The Marksmen"....so many precious times!
Can you believe, that if God allows, we are going to go through all that much more again? More babies, More good years, More bad years....If God allows, we will continue to go through it together. We will see God continue to be faithful. and we will have all those memories together to be able to look back on.
October 28, 2007
It's A Girl!!!
Kathryn Esther Beeman
Wednesday October 24th, 2007
October 23, 2007
Baby Bee and Various Parenting Musings....
We can hardly wait, and I'm sure J&R feel the same way!
We five have cast our votes as to when the baby shall arrive etc. etc. - I'll let you know who comes the closest after the wonderful event occurs! :)
Recovery has been going pretty well. It's hard to not be able to lift Patrick, and it's hard to have our life "upset" out of it's normal routine, but it's so worth it, as James reminds me when I fret.
I was reminded today of how much my little son needs a routine - among other things. From the time he was itty bitty he was easily over-stimulated. He needed lots of sleep, yet sometimes fought it, thus making himself and his parents rather miserable.
With the surgery has come the need for people to be over here helping me since I can't lift P. With that has come a change of routine. and more stimulation. Poor little Patrick is having a hard time with the changes and excitement. He is also testing the waters. Fun times indeed. But we shall make it. And we are ever grateful for the help of those willing to come spend the day here with me lifting Patrick etc. etc.!
Patrick's personality continues to bloom - and as it does, I can look back and think -hey! he used to make that look when he was "little!" For quite awhile now he has had very definite opinions of how he wants things to go. Things of play etc. etc. - he has planned out just how he wants them to go - and he gets rather upset if anyone suggest something different!
It's amazing how different it is to have a child of your own vs. just babysitting. It's so true that love covers a multitude of sins.
It's a really neat thing to be able to compare our imperfect but oh so strong love for our children, no matter what they do, to the perfect and oh so much stronger love that God has for us. It's a great hope when we feel like surely God couldn't love us after this or that thing that we've done. I mean, last night my son threw a terrible terrible fit - totally out of control awful behaviour. Yet that night my heart was full of love for him. To think that God feels like that (and so much more/better) towards us! It's encouraging!!!
The 21st marked the one year anniversary of finding out I was pregnant with Jamie. So many milestones to pass after that loss. Still some more coming up in November, too. Almost a year since I've been pregnant. That's the longest I've gone since getting married. It was 8 months until there was Patrick, then about 9 months before there was Jamie.
Well, James was up until about 3:30 am - then up around 6:30, so he is already in bed. Perhaps I shall head that direction here soon, since I will hopefully be making a trip to visit the new baby tonight!
Have a wonderful evening! Hopefully soon there will be a big "IT's a GIRL or BOY" posty!!!
October 18, 2007
I'm so grateful to God for taking care of me today, guiding the doctor's hands, providing financially, calming my nerves, guiding my husband in the right direction (that I should have the surgery) etc. etc.....God is SO good to me. I'm SO grateful to each of you for praying for me, too! Thank you so much.
Recovery is going well. My mom was here today, and my husband was too, of course. He was so sweet to me, and is taking wonderful care of me.
Thank you all again for praying! It's such a HAPPY day for me - like the beginning of a new life! Thank you, God!
October 14, 2007
What's Up....
We've had some exciting news in the last couple of weeks. First we found out my cousin Jason and his wife, Carolyn are expecting their first baby! We were thrilled to hear that! Then we found out that my other cousin, Trisha, and her husband Gustavo are also expecting their first baby! We were thrilled again. It's so exciting to have these precious little ones on their way into our family. I cannot wait.
Speaking of not being able to wait-I cannot wait for the very close (we hope anyways!) arrival my brother and his wife's first baby, Baby Bee! I'm SO SO SO excited to see that precious little one. My brother's having a baby! It's so exciting and so amazing! (well, he's not having it, but ya know :) ) Pray for Rachel and the precious baby as you think of them. I hope she has a fast and as easy as possible labor, and that it is a wonderful experience for her!
Yesterday we got the letter about the end of our lease here at the apartments coming up - December 31st. I'm excited about the prospects up ahead. I hope we can find a nice little house to rent somewhere. It will be so nice to have a backyard!!
This coming Thursday I am having Gallbladder surgery. Please pray for me, as I am nervous. At the same time, I am very excited and grateful to God.
This has been such a long thing for me. So many times of pain and not knowing what to do....
What we believe was my first big bout with my gallbladder was way back when I was/thought I was in labor with Patrick! So, it has been a long time. Thankfully I stopped having attacks in late June/early July of '06, but It still gives me some pain-and although I did pass some stones we think, the sonogram showed that I have a mass of something in there still.
I wasn't sure if I should have my gallbladder out. We went ahead though and set up surgery for October 18th. The surgery center needed $2000 dollars before the surgery. We didn't have that, but our dear, dear family and friends from our old Church put on a garage sale to help with our medical bills.
Because of them we made a payment last month of over half the fee. We are so grateful to those people who gave of their things, time and energy. Thank you all SO much! I know it was a lot of work. We are truly grateful to everyone who helped. What a blessing you all have been-and what love you have shown us!! May God bless you for your kindness, love, hard work and generosity!
I was still unsure of what I should do about the surgery, but my dear husband said he thought it was what we should do, and decided this week to go ahead and pay the rest of the fee, even though it would make things tight for us....and do you know what the Lord did? First he made it possible for James to play some gigs this week (even with his full time job) giving us more money than usual.
THEN, on the very day James paid the surgery center, there came a letter to our mail box with $500 in it! What an amazing God we have! He is so gracious to me. So many times I grumble and complain...say and think horrible things....yet he turns around and gives us these great gifts! He is merciful and good to me-I am so undeserving of both!
The gift in the mail was anonymous....so, if that person happens to read this, please know how very much you blessed us by your gift. We are very grateful. Thank you SO much!!
So Thursday is the big day. It's such a huge thing for me. This gallbladder adventure has been long-seems like so long to me....it's amazing to think it's coming to an end. Of course I know that you can have problems from not having your gallbladder, so please pray that I won't have any, and that everything will go fine with surgery. It's my first surgery so of course I'm nervous. Probably would be even if it wasn't my first.
So, that's what's up. James is off at his last concert, and I'm going to go relax and watch a movie! Hope everyone is doing well!
October 09, 2007
Longing for a Circle....with love to my "Complete Circle"!!
October 04, 2007
A Thoughtful Thing...
I have such a thoughtful and patient and loving husband!
October 03, 2007
Rachel's Baby Shower!
Can't wait for the precious baby to arrive!